___Twilight___

No, I am not a fan of Edward and what not.

It's early in the morning and
I am typing so fast I don't know what I am typing

I am editing so much that English doesn't make sense to me anymore
I am thinking so hard that veins are visible 10 miles away
I am so awake, I hate it

Am up and about due to my love affair with completing-last minute-assignment

Was telling my someone that I have a terrible love dilemma with assignment
I love them dearly, to death,
but their Deadlines is always standing in between us!

*sigh*

that's it, I pronounced myself "Going Bonkers!"

___When things don't go our way...____

...When things refuse to go our way,
what better way to cry
and burn it all away...

When "I'll be there" shatters away,
when faith walks on broken glass
I lay down my arms
shrugged my shoulder
and say "It's okay..."

When love re-appears,
when hugs are no longer there,
when holding your hands
are something in the past,
I allow memories to take charge

It kills me to say this
I really miss you too
not a day goes by
not thinking "How was your day?"

I really miss your hair,
I miss just being there
so,

I tell lies
that I made you believe
then guilt kicks in
and I remember,
what it feels
to be, just to be with you

...when things don't go our way
I step aside slowly
day by day
it just hurts
less
that way...

I'm sorry

*written after my 24th birthday*

___Sick___

*ah-choooo*
First it was the flu
*cough cough*
then started coughing
*cough cough cough... voiceless*
sore throat joined in the fun
*sizzling hot - Forehead*
fever was last to register

"Teacher, you know Kung Fu panda? You look like one!"

*ah-choooo*

Panda or not,
all I want to do is
sleeeeeeep..........
No to classes,
No to tuition,
No to late nights out!

___On lightining____

Flashes of lights from Heaven above
send chills straight down to my bones
cool breeze caressing my face
just like kisses from heaven to earth

*just put a smile on my face*

___I see RED___

First you told me the money is not ready
then you told me please call this number
When I called the number
you asked for my details
Then suddenly you passed me to another grumpy lady
she then asked me stupid questions
and finally I was told
"No... we didn't receive your letter."

I......SEE.....RED....

"What do you mean you lost my letters? What if this is a matter of life and death? You have the audacity to tell that person I lost your letter?"

*silence*

"Please call back in 2 weeks time to see if your money is ready for collection."

*silence*

"You mean I have to wait for one month? When I owe you money, you chased me till my doorstep, when you owe me money, I have to wait freaking one month to get a refund?"

*silence*

I....SEE....RED!

*and the rest was history!*

*due to the variety of vocabulary used in
the next part of the speech,
I choose to have
viewer discretion
and not put all
those words
in here.*

___I see you___

How language and meanings revolved:-

First we have "I love you"
then we have "I heart you"
now we have "I see you"

I like the last best cause,
"Actions do speak louder than words"
No?

Sometimes all we need is to SEE
I see you and I hope you see me too
:)

___On "What happened to you Angela?"

If you see me today,
smiles have failed me
they gave up on me
totally

If you see me today,
a dark cloud hang over my head
linger just for another moment
and another and another

If you see me today,
I don't know who I am anymore
I lost my soul
my life
my joy

If you see me today,
I am walking on a road
where walls
dark, strong walls
are what I face everywhere

If you see me today,
you'll say
"What happened to you, Angela?"
and I'll say

"Summer turned to winter, snow turned into rain
and rain turned into tears on my face
when life shows no mercy
is there a reason to be jolly?"

___In the rain___

When it was raining outside, I left everything in my car. I took off my shoes. I stood out from the car and .... stood in the middle of the park, turned my face upwards to the sky and just let the rain drops caressed my face!

For that moment,
I felt I was a kid again
For that moment,
I felt no pain
For that moment,
the rain painted a smile on my face,
and I said,
"Dance Angela, Dance!"